:: Rest ::

Rest.................


A simple four letter word that brings about so much more than we can imagine.
It's what we need in our crazy lives in order to keep our head above water.
It's what rejuvenates us, refreshes the soul.

It can be as simple as enjoying a hot cuppa for five minutes while children are distracted,
Turning your phone on silent, off the hook for a twenty minute power nap.
If your extremely blessed a full day/s without any distractions at all.
Freedom to do things at your own pace, spend some time with Him,
read a book, do some baking, watch a movie, the list is endless.

This is me today....
My In-Laws have come and taken my boys on a fun filled adventure day so that I may have some much needed REST, before our newest munchkin makes his arrival.
After quite a few days of whinging, fights and little attitudes and quite a few tears (from my side) this day has been welcomed with opening arms and many thanks.

Today I am thanking Jesus that he answers prays even if we do not directly ask, He just knows.
Thankful for those that listen to His small prompting and obey.

Yes I have already enjoyed my five minute Hot cuppa,
I will be turning my phones off for a twenty minute or more power nap
and will be pottering around the house enjoying the quietness.

Praying you are getting your much needed rest, whichever way that looks like.

Kristie xx

Happy Birthday to me.

Well in all the hustle and bustle of getting ready for Christmas, end of school year and just general life

I completely forgot my wee little blogs 1st birthday.

So cheers to a interesting first year.

I'm hoping my next will be all the more better.

I have meet some incredible ladies that I now call friends and am so grateful to have them apart of my world now.

Looking forward to meeting many more people along this journey.

Continuing to flesh out my heart for all things Jesus, Family, Friendship and Life.

Thank you to all my faithful followers all 14 of you (that I know of) and for those I don't know yet,

Don't be shy, I love making new friends.

Kristie xx

{However small, a life is still precious}

A baby

whether outside the womb, or inside, 

a cell, a fetus, an embryo, 

a few days gestation or 40 weeks gestation...

It is still something that God created, what He planted and nurtured within us.

To Him its a life from the moment we conceive them. 

We have a right to mourn no matter what life span it has. 

Something apart of us, of our husbands and our God,

 was there and is now gone, that is something we mourn. 

A thought for you most precious friend who may be dealing with the loss of a life from someone who hurts as much as you. 

There is no wrong or right for this. However you feel is ok.

Dreaming........ loneliness

Dreaming of.............

far off places

a tropical island 

a snow covered cabin

cobble streets

wide open spaces

secluded waterfalls 

Right now any of these places in my minds eye have kept me in a happy place.
Away from the whinging, defiance, household chores, bills, loneliness.

To Cloth or Not To Cloth????????????

Well my lovelies the question on my mind at the moment is just that
'To Cloth or Not To Cloth?'
A few of my lovely mumma friends have been using cloth nappies for their kids and swear by them.

What do you do? or have done?


What brands to you swear by?


what are the best sites to find out more information from????

Kristie xx

:: 30 weeks ::

10 weeks to go till we will be getting to meet our newest little man.

10 weeks for my already large belly to double in size at the rate he is growing.

10 weeks before my household becomes a crazy new adventure to navigate.

10 weeks to get this house in order and ready for another little man.

10 weeks to pull out and sort through all the gorgeous teeny tiny clothes that already tell the story and hold the memory of two other champions.

10 weeks to make the most of the cherished one on one time with Master G before someone else is craving my attention.

10 weeks to get all my questions and thoughts out to make sure the next year runs as smoothly as possible.

Kristie xx

Sweet Little Ones

Today the tears flowed just a little and then a lot.

I prayed ever so quietly to my Jesus,

I prayed that He would sweep my little bubba up in His bring strong arms,

hold them tight,

kiss their yummy cheeks 

and whisper in their ears that Mumma loves them and misses them so very much.

That every day I think of them and long for the day I will be able to hold them,

kiss them,

whisper in their ear "Mummy Loves You".

I prayed that He would wrap this little mumma up in those 

same strong arms,

hold me tight

kiss my tear streaked cheeks 

and whisper in my ear that He loves me,

and there will come a day when the pain is not so bad,

that I will remember my sweet little one with a smile,

with love and happiness that they 

are in a better place, 

that they never had to deal with the pain of this world,

that they only know the goodness and majesticness of their loving Saviour.

The journey is challenging and at times extremely painful,

I cling to Jesus with everything that is in me,

with all the strength I can muster.

I look to all I have and am truly thankful.

My Family is my blessing.

{Psalm 18:20-24}

God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before Him. 

When I got my act together, He gave me a fresh start.

Now I'm alert to God's ways; I don't take God for granted.

Every day I review the ways He works; I try not to miss a trick.

I feel put back together, and I'm watching my step.

God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart

to His eyes.

A beautiful scripture spoken over me last night at the Hills sisterhood United night.

My heart is open and willing.

I will journey through this season with these words of wisdom tattooed on my heart.

Kristie xx

IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its another Boy for this growing household.

Seems we are destined to raise mighty champion warriors

and I LOVE IT.

We have reached with a lot of relief and success

the halfway mark.

Now the countdown begins till we get to meet

our little champion.

Kristie xx

These Moments

My dishes may be piled up on the sink,
The Laundry is waiting patiently in several piles for its next turn through the machine.
Beds are only partially made,
There are crumbs sticking to the bottom of our feet.


All this though is blurred into the background as I stare into the sweet yummy eyes of Master G as he so cutie asks "play mummy" How could I possibly say No.

And you know what I Don't. These are the moments that are fleeting and soon enough there will be another little one craving my attention.
So for now I take everything moment I can.

Kristie xx

Battles and prayer

Battles are a common thing in my world at this present time.

This season that has started is one I know I'm not going to like very much.

There are more hard days then easy.

'Dragon mumma' has set up camp in our home.

This does not make for a happy home.

There is some darkness lurking.

If you pray I would appreciate if you said a little one for me.

A lot of prayer will be needed over the next little while.

Kristie xx

{The Day After Sunday}

I know a day late but linking up with this gorgeous one.

Well lets start by saying that this past weekend was not all glamorous and fun filled as I had previously hoped it would be.
Hubby was going to be away for 4 days for work and I had big plans with the boys just us time.
Well that fell in the toilet as soon as we dropped him at the train station.
Both my beloved boys came down with nasty colds that left us indoors and watching movies, wiping noses constantly, tantrums, almost a full bottle of panadol (my best friend), and 2 very sleepless nights.

Although it seems that this weekend has only bought about sadness, it did make me realise something.
That I am a very capable mother.
I have been doubting my abilities a lot lately and allowing myself to dwell on this lie, in my opinion, probably way too long.
Though this weekend without my knight in shining armour, I managed to keep things together with little to no sleep and not lose my cool, well at the kids anyway, there may have been a moment of closed door and some breathing and prayer.

So this week I am walking tall in that knowledge that I AM CAPABLE.

I hope you all had a lovely weekend.

New Obsession

What I have been getting completely lost in the

last few days.

You WANT to check this out.

A Little Delightful

The kids crafts and ideas for organising are fantastic.

If you have not yet been blessed to stumble upon this gem,

Grab a cuppa and head on over.

You wont be disappointed.

Kristie xx

HELP!!!!!!!

Yes i know what your thinking 2 posts in one day, whats gotten into her.
I tell you its those adorable ankle biters who quite frankly are making me second guess everything I have learnt about one of the hardest jobs on the planet....MOTHERHOOD.
Ever since hubby started working a proper 8-5 office job, things have been more and more hectic and all the patience i can muster has been tested.
I am certainly beginning to doubt my competence, and to be quite honest I see more of cranky and I mean CRANKY mummy more often then I like.
Most of the day things are quite good, Master G and I hang out, play, watch movies, colour, and visit friends. He is still napping in the day so that allows me to get a couple of hours to myself which is amazing.
Then 3pm rolls around and its time for school pickup. Most of the time this starts out great. Master D and I chat about his day and what he learnt and what games he played with his friends at lunch.
Then everything shifts, EVERY afternoon without fail he is asking if he has to do his jobs, can he just do one. Or he just straight out tells me he is not doing them that day. I know that may sound a little lame but when its every afternoon and I lovingly explain that the jobs we have set for each day is so that he can learn to take responsibility for his things and learn to help mum and dad around the house, by the third day I have just about had it.
Then comes the drama once we get home, everything comes with an argument, whinging, you name it I get it. I ask him not to do something so he goes ahead and does it. I am so sick of hearing my own voice saying the same thing over and over again.
Which leads me into the crazy ZOO hour/s, those that have young children will know that time when all hell breaks lose, the animals burst out of their enclosures with every intention of creating major feral mayhem.
Now I'm at complete loss.
I have had enough.

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How do you more than capable mothers reading this keep your ZOO hours down to minimal damage???????????????

Got any great scriptures that you use to help you??????

Things I'm Loving...

Linking up with this lovely lady today

This week has been one of the worst weeks I have had in awhile.
After my last post about having more energy, it was zapped again this week with a violent tummy bug.
At first I thought it was just morning sickness sticking around for a little longer, but then I took a turn for the worse.
Lets just say it was certainly NOT a pretty sight and neither is my face at the moment :( I'm pretty sure I burst 9o% of my blood vessels on my face and neck.
Anyone know of a good remedy to help them settle back down and disappear?

So my reason of Thanks this week is my INCREDIBLE hubby.
After working some pretty crazy long hours last week and the start of this week he has done about 20 loads of washing, including bedsheets from when i kindly shared my yuckiness with our boys, poor little munchkins, cleaned and disinfected all of the rooms in the house, and if that wasn't enough he was getting up during the night with the boys to help me rest.
AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hands down Hubby of the Year.
Hears to praying he stays well.

Kristie xx

Energy my beloved companion....

The Last few weeks my beloved friend and companion ENERGY has been extremely vacant and unfriendly.
Suffice to say not a lot has been done around here.
The lounge has been my constant friend.
Thankfully we are heading into the second trimester now so Energy is finally making an appearance.
My house is very thankful.
So are my children lol.

Kristie xx

{The Day After Sunday}

Linking up with this Lovely Lass today. (Cant quite figure out how to add the button )

Well what an incredible weekend we got to experience.
This weekend marked the 3rd Anniversary of my hubby's horrific motorbike accident that had him check into heaven for 3 long minutes, Though God had bigger plans for him.

We were counting our MANY blessings that this significant weekend has bought over the years.

The First being our incredibly handsome and cheeky second son Master G who was actually due on the first anniversary date of the accident though decided to come a wee bit early so we were able to celebrate with our little miracle in our arms, whom would not be here had Jesus not miraculously bought his daddy back to us.

Secondly we were this year able to celebrate yet another miracle. YES you heard me....ANOTHER miracle.
By the grace of God and His Faithfulness we announced this weekend that the next little miracle for our precious family is safely tucked away in my belly and it is not going anywhere.
After the last few months of heartache our Joy has come, God is fulfilling His promise and thankfully we did not have to wait too long.

So very Thankful this sweet day after Sunday

Kristie xx

Messy House/Messy mind

This saying has been playing a HUGE part in my life right now.
Because I have been sick for the last few weeks the house work has been a distance thought as I have been struggling to survive (i know major drama queen) from the comfort of my lounge.
My amazing hubby has been working hard at his new job, though it now means he works 2 jobs, one during the day and one at night (he loves a challenge lol), which has left most of the house duties to me. Well that is not working well at the moment.
Today I arrived for my incredible mumma to babysit little man so that i could get stuck into the disaster zone.
Hopefully I can get through most of it but I think its going to be a 2 or more day job.
I know though how important it is for me to have my house in order for the exact reason the saying says, My mind right now is not coping with all the mess and its not functioning to the best of my ability.
Even my writing is off. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I need some freedom and I'm going to do whatever I can to get it.
See you all on the other side.

Kristie xx

p.s Any of you lovely ladies got some great tips for keeping organised in your house? Or where I can get more motivation from lol?

Grateful

I have been feeling a little under the weather the past few days and have enjoyed greatly the quiet time that comes with the big boy being at school and the littlest man being asleep.

I have chosen to not do much but sit on my couch and just be still.
What it has consisted of is no music, no TV, just me and my online sisterhood.
There are some certain girls in my world you have been extremely refreshing for my soul.
Girls whose words of comfort and encouragement have seen me through extreme pain and sadness, and moments of just needing a kind word to left a damper day.

You may be struggling with stuff in your life that has left your soul feeling a little battered and bruised, I too have been and I my advice to you....

Go check out these sweet, encouraging blogs from some beautiful girls I feel privileged to call my friends, even if we have never meet in person :)

Stacey at Blogs Tea & Me
Em at duck-blue egg and teacups too
Jo at Warrior Princess Lessons

There are plenty more I love but for my season right now these girls are the bomb.

Thank you to Stacey for the initial idea and shout out. I believe we all need a little encouragement every now and again.

Kristie xx

Taking a little Holiday

So I know that Ive been a little quiet on here lately, I'm sorry.
Life is pretty hectic but thankfully a little break is just around the corner.
Literally......
Tomorrow we jump on a plane and fly our tired selves all the way to sunny, hot, relaxing, soul refreshing Townsville. AHHHHHHHH just thinking about it has my body slowly easing the built up tension.

After the challenging couple of months we have had, this holiday is just what we need.
We will be staying with our beautiful friends who's boys are the same age as our boys and have been their besties pretty much since birth. Needless to say Master D can not wait.

Some extra exciting news.

I had the absolute privilege and honour of praying with Master D when he gave his heart to Jesus and made Him his best friend. I tell you what NOTHING compares to that.
We celebrated after school with a dounut and babycino, of course that was followed by a look (play) around the local Toys R Us. So fun.

What would have to be your most memorable moment?

Kristie xx

Moments of Peace

Currently my two little men are in their room, playing, interacting and plain old getting along (upon my request)
YES I asked my 5 year old to take his 1 year old brother into their room and play with him so mummy could have some peace moments to herself.
Selfish mumma??? maybe or ,maybe not...
The last few days have been quite a struggle in the mothering department.
So many attitudes, trantrums, name calling you name it its been happening in our house.
Its almost as if the crazy windy cold weather has evoked something deep within my boys that has manifested in many forms.
SO MANY TEARS....(and that's just from me).

So right now I'm giving myself a few peaceful moments to gather myself and the crazy thoughts running about in my head.
Order and routine needs to be welcomed back into our home with open arms like a long lost friend who has been gone for toooooo long and finally returns with the hopes and dreams of new adventures and funness (not sure that's a word but I'm running with it).
Time to press the restart button.

Any words of wisdom or nuggets of gold you could offer in relation to my situation would be greatly appreciated.

Kristie xx

Things Im Loving..

I'm linking up with this lovely lady today.

What I'm loving...

 

 these verses have been written on my heart and soul this past week

 This beautiful woman in my world

who has been everything that I need and more

and her gorgeous daughter who has been healing my broken heart with her 

stunning eyes, sweet coos and yummy hugs.

What are you loving?????

Kristie xx

The Small Things.....

As I sit here and type there are plenty of things i am thankful......

The rain is falling outside casting a stunning low grey through my window.
The house is quiet as I am the only one in it as hubby has taking the boys out.
The men and women who fought and are still fighting for our freedom that we celebrated and remembered this early morning.
An intimate moment last night.
Friends and Family who have been quiet pillars of strength.
New friendships that are blossoming in these hard and dark days.
The comfort of my warm bed as I sit here and write.
MY JESUS, who throughout these past few days has given me peace, comfort, strength, love even some joy as I journey this new season.
HE is risen and all my sins are washed away, I have NEW life in Him. His mercies are New EVERYDAY.
Today is a good day, a SOUL refreshing day.

Kristie xx

Happy Easter

Happy Easter 

hoping your having a fabulous day with your families celebrating 

Much love 

Kristie xx

A New Journey....

A new journey has begun.
One I was hoping I would never have to travel.
One that I'm not sure will ever end.
A part of me is now missing.
The tears have finally started, my heart hurts.
Im angry. Im scared, im confused, I just dont understand.
WHY???????????????????

Why do these things happen? why do we have to lose things so dear.
My hearts desire has been ripped from my chest, now all thats left is a dark scary hole that will never be filled.
That special door that opens to a room full of laughter, love, dreaming as a new creation is born was open for far to short a time, now closed forever.
I cling to Jesus trying to figure out this mess, scared to fall to deep, to fall to far.
I miss feeling the excitement each time i wake that I have a miracle growing instead me,
that miracle is gone....................
I will never while on this earth get to meet our precious little miracle that we had been trying for so long to welcome into our family, to add to our already incredible world.

Jesus I need you.
The tears keep falling.

My Weekend........

A wedding

with this handsome man

 this included our precious boys being looked after OVER NIGHT. yay

A date day we did have that started with a beautiful sleep in, that had us waking to the most wonderful sound on this planet other than my boys squeals of laughter....

RAIN 

(oh how I love thee)

Once we finally decided to hope out of bed we continued our day with breakfast

(mmmmm such a spunky man)

we then ventured out for a little window shopping. It was so lovely not to have to worry about 

where each of the boys are,

constantly asking them to hurry up or slow down,

to be careful while inside beautiful jewellery shops (they have an obsession with touching all the long chain necklaces which then gets them all tangled, therefore I have to UNtangle them all).

We then meet up with some friends and had some yummy lunch.

We then picked up our little men and headed to a friends for dinner.

This is how they sat for most of the night.

Best mates.

Hope your weekend was fabulous.

Kristie xx

Test...

Last night was truly an experience that tested my ability to handle an emergency.
My incredible husband had decided to make me a surprise special dinner just because. I was in our bedroom when I heard him call out LOUDLY, as a came into the kitchen he was on his knees clutching his hand, all he was saying was 'lots of blood'. I started to freak out just a little.
We took him into the bathroom to run water over it. He then proceeded to tell me that he was washing the knife up in the sink and his hand slipped over the blade cutting his right palm under his thumb and pinkie.
As he was telling me this all the colour had left his face. NOT GOOD.
He then told me he was pretty sure he was about to pass out, I caught him just as he fell sideways. 'CRAP' is all I could manage to say.
I got a towel under his head and tried to figure out what to do.
Thankfully my girlfriend had been coming over and arrived just in time.
She knocked on the door, i opened it freaking out and in my pj's.
She came to the rescue. Piling hubby into the car as he had finally come to, we heading to the emergency department. There was a lovely nurse there to help patch him up and send us into the doctor for further treatment.
He is now home with a bandage on his hand for the next 48hours. Thankfully it was not too serious.

What I learnt.........I'm not always great in these kind of emergencies. Something i need to work on considering i have 2 adventurous boys who at some point will probably be coming to me with something more than just a scratch. Time to brush up my first aid skills.

Kristie xx

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made......

'I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.'

(Psalm 139:14)

This verse has been in my spirit this morning after listening to a sermon on my local christian radio station. The lady was talking in relation to single christian women and their search for a partner. 

Even though I am happily married the words she was speaking were really penetrating my heart.

The Lady was talking about God being a jealous God and how He commands us in the Old Testament to love Him with ALL our heart, mind, strength and spirit.

I truly believed that I was, Until I realised that I was looking for my WORTH from others instead of loving God with EVERYTHING that was within me. He created me there-fore my worth should be coming from Him.

When I met my hubby I craved the attention he would give me and would get lost in all the adoration and love. Though even still to this day it just never seemed enough, I was and still am, hungry for more and my poor husband bears the brunt of my anger when he cant fill the need to my high standard. This i now realise can only be filled by Jesus.

Once again I am at the feet of my Jesus on my knees surrendering to all that He is and represents...

LOVE

JOY

PEACE

HOPE

HONOUR

GRACE

MERCY

KINDNESS

I want a more passionate and deeper intimacy with my Creator, The One who knew me even before the earth was formed, when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. (psalm 139:15)

'How precious to me are your thoughts, God! 

How vast is the sum of them!' 

(psalm 139:17)

Kristie xx

An Avalanche of Grace

I have been playing this song non-stop since I first heard it. 

WOW is all I have to say.

This Song is my Prayer right now and my 'go-to' when things are feeling a little crazy.

I have just come back from Colour Your World woman's conference hosted by Hillsong and my goodness Jesus has smashed my heart and thinking all over again.

For a special presentation we heard the story of this inspirational woman who sings this song on the new Hillsong United Aftermath Album.

On the little video Jill told her story that I have followed for the past 2 years after reading her story on her blog.

She truly is an inspiring woman of God who has trusted wholeheartedly on her Majestic, Healing Saviour to heal her broken and wounded heart. 

Even in the midst of heartache when most people would just want to run and hide, instead she clung to Jesus and choose to Worship and sing praise in her tough season and wrote and sang this amazing song with Brooke Fraser less then 2 weeks after giving birth to her first son at 6months into her pregnancy. He was only on this planet for a few short hours.

I am forever grateful for the journey I am on and that each and every day I walk with the Creator of the Universe, 

The One who gave His only Son to die for the mistakes I have made (and there are plenty of them)

though by HIS GRACE, I can live in Freedom.

Kristie xx

Fasting....

Well as you know a few weeks ago whilst the Hubby was away I took a week long social media fast. This basically had me unplugging both my TV and Computer and I tell you what.....Me and My Jesus are all the better for it.
Our relationship has gone from strength to strength and I am learning so much more and who I am in Him and how He sees me through His eyes. So Precious.
So I'm doing it again.
Tomorrow will be exactly a week till COLOUR YOUR WORLD CONFERENCE. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so EXCITED. I didn't get a chance to go last year and was almost not able to go this year either though MY JESUS as always has blessed his princess with being able to go YAY.
I know without a doubt He has some BIG stuff in store for me at Colour and I don't want to miss a thing so I have decided that I want to be as prepared as I can this means doing another fast and whats even better Hubby is doing it with me this time. So much better when you have someone special to share the journey with.
This time around Ill be writing it in my journal so that I can blog about it after colour.
I so cant wait to get so completely lost in my Saviour this week, He really is THAT GOOD.

Love to you all and see you all soon.

Kristie xx

RELAX

'Relax,

I'll take it from here.'

sweet words placed on my heart this week from my beautiful saviour. 

A promise that if I cast ALL my cares on Him, I will have rest, HIS rest.

Me & My Jesus are pretty tight this last two weeks 

and its only going to get better.

Cling Tight to your Saviour, He is the ultimate relaxation from your weariness.

Kristie xx

'Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Matthew 11:29-30

Things Im Loving..

So I have been seeing a lot of posts lately about Things people are loving and thought I would join in. Hope it works.
Here is where I found the link.

And here is what I'm Loving.

This Little Man has stolen my heart.

This week has been just the 2 of us during the day, oh my heart it has been Divine.

This is us today playing with his little people train set, he Loves it.

Made my heart sing as I watched him.

Kristie xx

Soul Food

Next week Mr Hubby is leaving on a Jet Plane (at least I know when he'll be back again).

So for this little lady I will be Unplugging ALL electronic devises for the whole week, a sort of social media/network fast type of thing. Its a little daunting but know that it will be well worth it in the end.

I have a list of a few things I want to achieve around the house though the one thing that I CANT WAIT to do is get completely lost in my Saviour, Oh my heart does long for uninterrupted tangible presence of His Holy Spirit and I plan to experience it over and over. My heart skips a beat just thinking about it.

Something else I will be getting completely lost in is these....

Kristie xx

p.s welcome to my new followers Tammi, Debbie & Widge.
I feel extremely honour you are here. Enjoy

Perspective..

As I sit and write this my amazing hubby is crashed out on the lounge with a stomach bug, Master D is playing mariocart on the wii (he started big school yesterday - post on this later and today they rang me to pick him up as he had vomited) and lastly Master G is sleeping.
As I look around our entire bed contents is lying about the lounge room as we had to sleep in the lounge room the last 2 nights as its been soooooooo hot and the only air con is in this room,
The kitchen sink has enormous piles of dishes that are either drying, soaking or needing to be washed. There is washing that needs to be put away.
And my entire house is in dire need of a MASSIVE spring clean.

Even amongst all this mess I am grateful that I am surrounded by the ones I love, while today a family grieves the loss of a young man who served his country.
That the roof over our head is intact, where as some of those in North Queensland have had theirs ripped off.
Our water is clean to drink and in abundance, Townsvilles is not.
I have the freedom to proclaim that Jesus is my Lord, where some countries people are jailed or even worse killed for this.

 I could easily get frustrated and turn inward to wallow in my self pity but I'm not going to.
I make the choice to look outwards and thank God for all that I have and continue to pray for those around the worlds that are weathering much larger storms than I.

Kristie xx

Hear my heart oh Lord

Trying to find the words to understand what I want to express right now is difficult as I'm confused myself as to why certain things happen in our lives.
When I was in school I remember always striving to make sure that I was liked by everyone and if someone didn't then I would do whatever it took to change their minds, change who I was to be more likable to them which would then mean that some of those that already liked me would start to draw back as they were not liking the new me so the vicious cycle would start and continue on for many years. Craving attention was always my downfall growing up as I would be searching in all the wrong places, even the darkest of places just so that I would be getting what I needed, getting my tank full. Little did I know that I was chipping away at my self, slowing bringing destruction to my heart. Even growing up in church I never turned to Jesus for the fulfillment.
This as I got older lead me down an extremely dark and destructive path that eventually completely shattered me into a thousand pieces. Over the past 6 years I have been slowly putting those pieces back together and believe me I am defiantly no where near finished. Yes, I have come along way and am doing a whole lot better though this journey is not yet over. Along the way though I have had to put aside friendships that were just holding me down wanting me to stay as low as I could. JESUS has been an incredible release when things are just getting too much, when I feel as though I just don't want to open my eyes to yet another day. As the 'Footprints' poem suggests at this point in my walk with Jesus, I only see one set of footprints in the sand as He is carrying me.

Oops that was not exactly what I wanted to post about originally, love when you set out to do something yet somewhere along the way the spirit steers you in a new direction without you even realising. Love those moments.

What I was writing about at beginning was that seasons change us and sometimes it seems for the not so good, and sometimes for the oh so good.  In this season we are battling some big stuff in our house, since my husbands motorbike accident 2 and half years ago we have been riding a very emotional roller coaster that never seems to end. In 2 weeks he will be traveling to Brisbane for a week for specialist appointments that will hopefully tell us the full extent of his injuries and what is yet to come. THAT is the part that has been scared, petrified even. Is my heart ready to hear what they have to say? is it ready for the worst is it even ready for the best? my biggest question.....How long do we have him for?................................................................................................................
........................................................... Am i ready for THAT?
This is when i cling to my Jesus for dear life with tears streaming down my face, Can I do this? Can I live the next years with the thought in the back of my mind that at one point in my life it will just be me in this union of marriage, will I have to travel the rest of my journey with just my kids by my side. will there be a morning I wake and he is not by my side. I know this feeling oh to well as I experienced it so tangible 2 and a half years ago when we were in the mist of it all. Everyone of these questions flooded my mind as we waited, waited for him to wake up, waited for the phone call that he had gone to be with Jesus (thank the Mighty God we never got that call), waited to see what the damage would be and now as we prepare for the future I look to Jesus for comfort, understanding, wisdom, strength to carry my kids and husband through this next year as we continue this challenging season.

Kristie xx

Refresh My Soul

No matter what the season,
No matter what the circumstance,
No matter what the sacrifice,
No matter what the loss
MY JESUS NEVER CHANGES!!!!!!!!!!

No matter what I do,
HIS LOVE NEVER FAILS.

Nothing I do can earn me more or less of His love, it is UNCONDITIONAL.
And for this I am Forever Grateful that Jesus paid the price for me, took ALL my sins to the cross and erase all my pain.

Jesus continue to refresh my soul with your love, grace, mercy, forgiveness, compassion.

YOU ARE ALL WE NEED.

Kristie xx

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Its been one of those days....

Waking up this morning feeling like today was going to be a good day. I love those moments, I hold onto them with every part of me, carry it with me as I move about my day. THEN IT STARTS, the whinging and complaining, fighting, back chatting and temper tantrums. Within a moment that beautiful feeling gets ripped out of your arms. AHHHHHH!!! its all a little too hard. This so called Super mum just isn't cutting it today.

I LOVE my boys but man they can send me bonkers. I find myself wishing school would just HURRY UP so our home can be one less a day. I know bad mummy, but not really. He is just so full of energy and this little mumma cant always keep up. Though when this thought comes and I find myself wishing our last days together away I stop and realise....I will NEVER have this time again. I will NEVER get to spend these last few days before he really becomes a Big Boy again.

I WILL NOT MISS OUT. This is where I draw on my Heavenly Daddy and call out for HIS Strength that is so much more than mine, HIS Joy to laugh at all the funny things my boys do when my mouth muscles just don't want to move, HIS Love because I know His heart is so much bigger than mine.
HE is all I need.

Kristie xx

Early Spring Clean

This week has be crazy and fun all at the same time. I have been wanting to rearrange and de-clutter my house since we moved in to get rid of all the junk we had accumulated.
When Maryann at Domestically Speaking posted about this exact thing I was so excited I wanted to start right away.
This week was a STORAGE AREA. Loved it, I had plenty of storage areas to clean but I chose something that was easy to start off with and could work around the kiddies. So I chose our linen cupboard.

Here is the before:

Yes that is my little babe hanging out with me.

First I sorted the linen into piles. Then I put all the matching quilts sets together putting each one inside one of the pillowcases so its easier to store and find everything.

The top part of the linen cupboard was sort of the junk cupboard.

Here it is:

I cleared this out and replaced with our spare doonas and pillows.

Finally here is the after:

Its not much but i LOVE it.

I'm excited to be in my first Link Party, Thank you Maryann.

Kristie xx

CONSISTENT......AWAKENING

Over the past few weeks over the Christmas & New Year holidays I have been catching up on some of the blogs I follow & a couple have struck me to the core.

The first was this post by This Sweet Life of Ours One Word . K.J was writing about summing 2010 up with One Word in her One Word series. As I read this my heart started to pound & my mind was running at full speed. It got me thinking to what I would want my year of 2011 to sum up to? What was I going to fulfill in 2011 that would see me at the end of it feeling a massive sense of achievement and personal, spiritual, and emotional fulfillment???????
I spent some time really mediating over this and seeking God on what He wanted out of me and our relationship for this year. I even had it as a topic of breakfast conversation with my husband and my parents on New Years Day. There was a lot of great responses coming from all those that I loved and admired, then it was my turn.........Lord where are you taking me? I commit to handing everything yet again over to You completely. I'm in this walk with You and You alone. And in that still small voice "Consistent" huh!!!! what was that suppose to mean??? say again God I didn't quite understand, can you please explain a bit more. "You my beautiful daughter need to learn to be more consistent in ALL areas of your life; with your husband, your boys, your family (even the in-laws), your home, your friends, and with Me". My heart sank, I had thought i was doing fine with all these areas but He knew I could do better, that I was only putting a small amount of effort in instead of giving it my all and letting Him lead me, guide me and strengthen me. WOW.

If that wasn't enough I then read this God breathed post by Marriage to Motherhood Naming her year Here Jessica talks right at the last paragraph about 'Naming her Year AWAKENING'. as I was reading this post this morning my heart starting racing as I allowed Holy Spirit to minister to me with this simple yet powerful word. As I was reading I found the song 'Awakening by Chris Tomlin' on You Tube Awakening and let God do the rest as I listened. I am still swimming in His presence as I write this.

2010 was a difficult year in many ways, though finally I can see the end of this season just over the horizon, glowing with warmth and peace and love that only MY JESUS can provide at the end of a hard road.

Have a think.......What would you name your Year?

Thank you to both Jessica & K.J for sharing your heart, you have certainly helped unearth something deep in me.

Kristie xx

Happy New Year

Happy New Year From Us to You.

Praying this year brings many cherished moments and abundance of love.

Kristie xx