Happy Easter

Happy Easter 

hoping your having a fabulous day with your families celebrating 

Much love 

Kristie xx

A New Journey....

A new journey has begun.
One I was hoping I would never have to travel.
One that I'm not sure will ever end.
A part of me is now missing.
The tears have finally started, my heart hurts.
Im angry. Im scared, im confused, I just dont understand.
WHY???????????????????

Why do these things happen? why do we have to lose things so dear.
My hearts desire has been ripped from my chest, now all thats left is a dark scary hole that will never be filled.
That special door that opens to a room full of laughter, love, dreaming as a new creation is born was open for far to short a time, now closed forever.
I cling to Jesus trying to figure out this mess, scared to fall to deep, to fall to far.
I miss feeling the excitement each time i wake that I have a miracle growing instead me,
that miracle is gone....................
I will never while on this earth get to meet our precious little miracle that we had been trying for so long to welcome into our family, to add to our already incredible world.

Jesus I need you.
The tears keep falling.

My Weekend........

A wedding

with this handsome man

 this included our precious boys being looked after OVER NIGHT. yay

A date day we did have that started with a beautiful sleep in, that had us waking to the most wonderful sound on this planet other than my boys squeals of laughter....

RAIN 

(oh how I love thee)

Once we finally decided to hope out of bed we continued our day with breakfast

(mmmmm such a spunky man)

we then ventured out for a little window shopping. It was so lovely not to have to worry about 

where each of the boys are,

constantly asking them to hurry up or slow down,

to be careful while inside beautiful jewellery shops (they have an obsession with touching all the long chain necklaces which then gets them all tangled, therefore I have to UNtangle them all).

We then meet up with some friends and had some yummy lunch.

We then picked up our little men and headed to a friends for dinner.

This is how they sat for most of the night.

Best mates.

Hope your weekend was fabulous.

Kristie xx

Test...

Last night was truly an experience that tested my ability to handle an emergency.
My incredible husband had decided to make me a surprise special dinner just because. I was in our bedroom when I heard him call out LOUDLY, as a came into the kitchen he was on his knees clutching his hand, all he was saying was 'lots of blood'. I started to freak out just a little.
We took him into the bathroom to run water over it. He then proceeded to tell me that he was washing the knife up in the sink and his hand slipped over the blade cutting his right palm under his thumb and pinkie.
As he was telling me this all the colour had left his face. NOT GOOD.
He then told me he was pretty sure he was about to pass out, I caught him just as he fell sideways. 'CRAP' is all I could manage to say.
I got a towel under his head and tried to figure out what to do.
Thankfully my girlfriend had been coming over and arrived just in time.
She knocked on the door, i opened it freaking out and in my pj's.
She came to the rescue. Piling hubby into the car as he had finally come to, we heading to the emergency department. There was a lovely nurse there to help patch him up and send us into the doctor for further treatment.
He is now home with a bandage on his hand for the next 48hours. Thankfully it was not too serious.

What I learnt.........I'm not always great in these kind of emergencies. Something i need to work on considering i have 2 adventurous boys who at some point will probably be coming to me with something more than just a scratch. Time to brush up my first aid skills.

Kristie xx

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made......

'I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.'

(Psalm 139:14)

This verse has been in my spirit this morning after listening to a sermon on my local christian radio station. The lady was talking in relation to single christian women and their search for a partner. 

Even though I am happily married the words she was speaking were really penetrating my heart.

The Lady was talking about God being a jealous God and how He commands us in the Old Testament to love Him with ALL our heart, mind, strength and spirit.

I truly believed that I was, Until I realised that I was looking for my WORTH from others instead of loving God with EVERYTHING that was within me. He created me there-fore my worth should be coming from Him.

When I met my hubby I craved the attention he would give me and would get lost in all the adoration and love. Though even still to this day it just never seemed enough, I was and still am, hungry for more and my poor husband bears the brunt of my anger when he cant fill the need to my high standard. This i now realise can only be filled by Jesus.

Once again I am at the feet of my Jesus on my knees surrendering to all that He is and represents...

LOVE

JOY

PEACE

HOPE

HONOUR

GRACE

MERCY

KINDNESS

I want a more passionate and deeper intimacy with my Creator, The One who knew me even before the earth was formed, when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. (psalm 139:15)

'How precious to me are your thoughts, God! 

How vast is the sum of them!' 

(psalm 139:17)

Kristie xx

An Avalanche of Grace

I have been playing this song non-stop since I first heard it. 

WOW is all I have to say.

This Song is my Prayer right now and my 'go-to' when things are feeling a little crazy.

I have just come back from Colour Your World woman's conference hosted by Hillsong and my goodness Jesus has smashed my heart and thinking all over again.

For a special presentation we heard the story of this inspirational woman who sings this song on the new Hillsong United Aftermath Album.

On the little video Jill told her story that I have followed for the past 2 years after reading her story on her blog.

She truly is an inspiring woman of God who has trusted wholeheartedly on her Majestic, Healing Saviour to heal her broken and wounded heart. 

Even in the midst of heartache when most people would just want to run and hide, instead she clung to Jesus and choose to Worship and sing praise in her tough season and wrote and sang this amazing song with Brooke Fraser less then 2 weeks after giving birth to her first son at 6months into her pregnancy. He was only on this planet for a few short hours.

I am forever grateful for the journey I am on and that each and every day I walk with the Creator of the Universe, 

The One who gave His only Son to die for the mistakes I have made (and there are plenty of them)

though by HIS GRACE, I can live in Freedom.

Kristie xx

Fasting....

Well as you know a few weeks ago whilst the Hubby was away I took a week long social media fast. This basically had me unplugging both my TV and Computer and I tell you what.....Me and My Jesus are all the better for it.
Our relationship has gone from strength to strength and I am learning so much more and who I am in Him and how He sees me through His eyes. So Precious.
So I'm doing it again.
Tomorrow will be exactly a week till COLOUR YOUR WORLD CONFERENCE. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so EXCITED. I didn't get a chance to go last year and was almost not able to go this year either though MY JESUS as always has blessed his princess with being able to go YAY.
I know without a doubt He has some BIG stuff in store for me at Colour and I don't want to miss a thing so I have decided that I want to be as prepared as I can this means doing another fast and whats even better Hubby is doing it with me this time. So much better when you have someone special to share the journey with.
This time around Ill be writing it in my journal so that I can blog about it after colour.
I so cant wait to get so completely lost in my Saviour this week, He really is THAT GOOD.

Love to you all and see you all soon.

Kristie xx